Bettering myself

So today was sorta better. I feel like I eat ALL THE TIME. Sometimes I'm not even hungry and I eat. So my new goal for this week is to tone back a little on what I eat at dinner. Lunch is usually light for me and so is breakfast. But my weakness is dinner. It's the end of the day and by the time I get home I'm starving. So my new strategy is to have a small snack and drink water more throughout the day. So we will see.

Soo...

I totally biffed it. Today and yesterday were bad. I've been pigging out. I took a break from my workout, but I saw my boyfriend so I got a different kind of "workout". But today I really need to buckle down and get sweaty. cause I have gained three pounds...and I'm worried that it's fat not muscle, but I guess we will see.

And then...

And then today I weighed myself...wow. epic fail. Now I feel like absolute SHIT. I'm trying to rationalize it in my mind...but...I know that it's because I'm slipping. I can't belive that with all the good eating and the exercise that this is happening...and the size fours...awfully small today.

Progress!!

So after my workout I decided to take a peak at what my measurments are looking like...and...I'm down an inch on my waist and booty! (Those were the only spots I measured) I'm so happy. I'm doing pretty well at staying on track. I'm eating right (most of the time) and exercising. I'm hoping my life will calm down a little and I can begin doing some cardio outside before the snow comes. Go me!

Full week

So vacation went well, I stayed on track and between the walking and the swimming I did good. And now today, on Monday, I stayed on track too. I just hammered out a workout and now I'm off to catch some sleep.
zzzzzzz...... : ) 

Vacation Time

This week my family celebrated my sister's 28th birthday. And since she lives in Iowa, we are driving down to pick her up and then onto Nebraska where we will be visiting the Omaha Zoo.

In other news...IM EXHAUSTED. I don't even know why, but today I am sooo tired. Yesterday I took a reast day and although I'm tempted to do the same today I know that I have to stick it out. So here I go at almost 9pm to get through my 20 minute workout... : ( major blah. I better look hot in my swim suit this weekend.

Low Energy

Woke up toooo early. Off to a day at school then home. Since I had an appointment yesterday I missed school, so today's plus yeasterday's homework. Just finished.

I did so well at breakfast and lunch with eating healthy and light. Then dinner came a knocking. Wolfed down soup and a bun and crackers and cheese. Not too bad. Till you add in the two left over Halloween cookies I ate. So now I'm sitting on the couch trying to find the movivation to workout yet. I'm wondering how to plan rest days into my schedual. I'm worried that if I do, I'll use them as days to cheat and binge eat. Which would be disaterous considering that my size four jeans are getting tighter everyday.

I'm deffinitally feeling that whole self confidence thing chuggin down the drain.

Okay.Off to tighten my thighs and flatten my belly.

My first blog!

So I've finally become fed up with being fat, which at a little over 5 feet and around 137 pounds (on a good day) fat doesn't really apply....but I have this obbsesion with being thin. I've tried the whole eating right and exerciseing, but the thing is, I'm a group person. Doing things alone doesn't really work for me. So since every single person I know has as busy a life a the President, I thought, hey, why not try a blog. So here it goes. I have decided to blog about my efforts to stay thin in a non-thin world. My first task; set a workout routine.

So last year I did the whole gym thing. And let me tell you it was great. 45 minutes of workout every day and it was easy to loose weight and looked toned. Then summer happened. And although I havn't gained weight in numbers, I'm gaining inches around my middle faster than a pig at christmas time. And back fat. Ew. You know what I'm talking about if you have ever looked at your at your back in the mirror while only wearing a bra. It's thatfat the hangs over and under and all around. Yep. Back fat.

And don't even get me started on my love handles. The hardest part for me, is that no one seems to notice my sudden weight gain. Not my boyfriend. Or my family. Or my friends. So when I look in a mirror and see it, it feels like they are all lying to me...

So here goes nothing. I want to loose 10 pound and at least two inches around my middle by Christmas time. That gives me two months. And then, I wanna keep it off.

Starting weight: 138.5
Chest: 36.5 inches
Hips: 34.5 inches
Butt: 38 inches

So tell me, What are the best at home moves to do to loose weight and build muscle?